Dear GhanaWeb,
I was on my way to buy waakye one early morning when I saw a beautiful older lady returning from her daily walk. We had met before, but we had only exchanged pleasantries.
That day was our second encounter. I stopped her to ask how often she walked in the mornings and then asked if I could join her, as I found myself attracted to her.
She agreed, and we exchanged contact details, starting to go for walks together every morning. Two weeks into our daily walks, she invited me to her house.
She owns an apartment and drives a luxury car. I’m also doing well myself.
After she invited me to her house, she mentioned that she didn’t have any food, so we could either order in or, if I was patient enough, she’d cook for me.
She might have been flirting with me, or maybe it was just in my head. I told her I wanted to try her cooking, so we went to the supermarket to pick up the ingredients she’d need to make pasta. She’s 35, and I’m 26.
When we got home, she went into her wardrobe and changed into a seductive outfit, saying she wanted some fresh air. I didn’t want to make any assumptions because of the norms in this country. I didn’t want to out myself and be wrong, so I simply watched her cook.
During the meal prep, she started asking me personal questions, including about my relationship status. As we were talking, she came over to demonstrate how she used to dance with someone during her university days.
She held my waist, my heart was racing and I wasn’t thinking straight. I was looking at her and all I wanted to do was to kiss her, so I did.
I kissed her and she was stunned.
I was going to apologise but I didn’t get a rejection from her so I just got over my fear and kept kissing her until she kissed me back.
Our kiss got intense and heated up pretty quick. I led her to the sofa, lifted up her dress, ready to go down on her and that was when she started protesting. Asking me stop but I didn’t.
She eventually gave in and allowed me to eat her out until she had orgasm. After that, things got awkward so I had to leave upon her request. It was almost as if she was ashamed of what we had done.
Throughout the week, I called and texted her, she didn’t answer my calls or reply my texts. I went to her house in search of her and no matter how much I rang the bell, I had no response. She had cut all ties with me I guess.
I was so heartbroken and devastated. I even tried hooking up with guys but whenever I got in touch with them, the desire to ‘hook up’ left me.
Eventually, I was becoming okay and used to the fact she didn’t want to have anything to do with me again until one night, I saw her call come through.
My heart skipped a beat but I was also hurt so I didn’t pick the call. The next morning she called again and I answered.
She then asked to see me, I asked why and she said we need to talk and she’s sorry with the way she ghosted me all of a sudden.
She came to pick me up to her house, I was just thinking of crazy stuffs. I wanted to know either she liked what we did or she hated and what would be her next move. We entered into her apartment, before I could speak, she started kissing me. I was surprised so I had to break the kiss and ask her what was going on.
She didn’t say anything and continued to kiss me. I was still into her so I kissed her till we both got horny.
She led me to the bedroom, took off our clothes and made out.
She was so good, I could barely stand on my feet. She asked me to spend the night with her and I did. We talked and had sex throughout the night.
During our talk, I asked her why she drove me away the first time and why she ignored me. She said she was embarrassed and that no one has ever made her orgasm all her life and her first ever orgasm was with me.
The fact that I’m a girl didn’t help matters at all so she needed time to sort out her mind and know if she really wanted this.
My feelings for her kept growing, I couldn’t a day without seeing her. She’s always on my mind and it’s that bad.
We started a relationship so I was always around her which most people thought I was her sister.
I graduated from school and my parents threw a party for me so I invited her. When she came to my house, she said she wanted to talk to me privately.
I knew what she was up to and I wasn’t ready for that since we’re in my parents’ house. She convinced and seduced me till I gave in. I took her to my brother’s room and forgot to lock the door.
Just like that I got in the mood, we were passionately kissing each other when my mother barged into my brother’s room in search of him and saw us.
She couldn’t believe her eyes and as most African parent would behave.
She attacked my girlfriend and since she is older than me, my mum automatically thought she was the one who roped me into the sexual act.
My mother warned her to stay away from me and she was so humiliated. She then blocked me and moved out from her apartment. I was going crazy and could not eat for days.
My parents are disappointed that I am into women but I love her so much.
My mother advised me to stop but the more I try to forget about her, the harder it is for me.
I really want to stop lesbianism. I want to stop getting attracted to women but I honestly don’t feel a thing for men.
What should I do? My mother took me to a prayer camp for a powerful man of God to pray for me but I still can’t forget my girlfriend. I need help!
FG/EB
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